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Friday, February 20th, 2004
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4:45 pm - A Parting of Ways
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Despite how it has probably appeared here from the inception of this journal until some very recent entries, all is not well here in la-la land. Wifey and I have reached what in all probablity is a parting of the ways. I reach this point after what I feel are true, heartfelt and lengthy efforts on both of our parts to resolve our differences in a way that makes sense for both of us. I don't think she agrees on all counts at this stage, but I believe the healthiest way for each of us to go forward is separately.
I think we both hope it can be an amicable parting, each with continued love in our hearts for the other, and support for each other in what can be nothing other than a horribly difficult time for us both.
Any further writing from me will take place in my new, individual journal - ohbutyouwillpet. I have added most of the friends from this journal there, so please feel free to do the same. Hope to see you all there.
Adieu~
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| Saturday, January 31st, 2004
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11:50 am - The Great and Secret Show
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We all have our public faces. The one (or ones) we put on for the world at large. Some of us have many public faces - one for family, one for neighbors, one for close friends. I believe in most cases none of these faces are "false" or "fake"; we simply all make choices about the level of personal detail we choose to reveal in various situations. Being openly who you are is a wonderful thing, but does the lady you chat with in line at the bank really need to know you think she'd look hot with a giant cock gag shoved in her mouth, hanging upside down in your basement with some low level electrical current running through her nipples? Probably not.
This journal has been one of those faces for me. While it has perhaps been revealing to someone who's paying close attention, it has nonetheless been a highly selective exercise. LiveJournal is not typically therapy for me, or venting - it's simply writing, and I'm well aware of my audience when I post. It's truth, but only selected snippets of it...things I think will be an interesting or funny read. Through them you all see a part of my life, our lives, but certainly not the broad spectrum.
Of course, there is also a private face - the 'you' known only to you (if you take the time to reflect) or, if you're both lucky and brave, to one or a few special others. This is the Great and Secret Show - theatre with an endless run, leastways 'til death do you part. This part of you, at least this part of me, doesn't see the light of day very often. Though I'm wildly open about a lot of things, there are wide trampling swathes of me that are simply closed...permanently under construction...inaccessible to damn near everyone, including me sometimes.
But not today. The following is as close as most of you will ever come to a seat for my secret show. You've been warned.
( Inside OutCollapse )
Please understand the foregoing was neither a plea for sympathy nor an invitation for inquiries about what's going on. For those of you who are, thank you sincerely in advance for your concern, but I have NO desire to talk about what's going on, or what I've written here. I just needed to get some things out.
The End~
J
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| Thursday, January 29th, 2004
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2:24 pm - Kind of Cool
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| Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
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8:18 am - Just a Bit More Sick Humor
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8:15 am - The Belated Weekend Update
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Actually, this is pretty much a WAY belated Friday update, because after Friday my weekend was basically shot. Worked my butt off all day, then got ready while wifey dropped the munchkins off at Grandma & Grandpa's. Embarking on an evening of revelry is SO much nicer when the kidlets are safely ensconced with family, and don't need to be worried over 'til about noon the next day. Wifey looked amazing in her new micro skirt and a black cashmere turtleneck, but I can't show you because like a complete lameass I hauled my digital camera around the whole night without ever taking a single picture.
What can I say? I was too busy looking at and touching everything/everyone with my own eyes and hands to go behind the lens. We had a fantastic time at studio3dom and yummy's Fetish Nights production, and the turnout was awesome. I'd be really curious to know how much of that was Akron and how much of it was Cleveland. Hmmmm.
Saw so many people we know from all over it was amazing....you really don't realize how many people you know until a whole bunch of them are gathered in one place. After party was also awesome back at J & B's. Much bigger than the New Year's after party, but more mellow somehow, everybody just kind of relaxing and coming down from the event. We had to leave early (relatively speaking - about 6 am) to get a few hours of sleep before picking up the kids at noon.
Rest of the weekend was spent on "barely functioning" mode, now back to a busy work week.
Sheesh. This post actually makes a great fetish event seem almost boring. It wasn't, I promise...it's just me being too busy with work to give it the descriptive flair it deserved.
J
current mood: Busy
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| Monday, January 19th, 2004
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8:25 pm - Question of the Day
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| Friday, January 16th, 2004
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8:58 am - Am I A Horny Old Lecher??
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Our babysitter is coming to the event tonight ( Fetish Nights ), wearing one of wifey's outfits.
I cannot even explain how perversely excited I am about this...hehe.
Oh, and in the name of religious corruption, also apparently joining us will be a 19 yr old horny Mormon (description courtesy of someone ELSE, I'm just the messenger...lol) and an "experimental Jehovah's witness" (self described).
This may be quite possibly the weirdest party ever...lol.
J
current mood: Excited
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| Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
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8:59 am - Incentive
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For anyone who needs a smidge more incentive to attend Friday's event - Fetish Nights
Last night I bought wifey a new skirt to wear for the occasion....I'd say it's between 5 and 6 inches in length....hehe.
current mood: Worky
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| Sunday, January 11th, 2004
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9:13 am - The Fun Never Stops
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Some of you may have noticed a strong dichotomy in this journal. The bulk of our posts tend to be about activities at one of two extremes: 1) Wholesome family, child oriented stuff, which is only interesting or funny to people other than us because our son is a natural comedian...lol, or 2) Some kind of adult debauchery. Sure, there's the occasional rant over Q-tips, batteries, garbagemen or the pathetic state of the educational system in Ohio, but most posts could be put into the first two categories, which is a fine thing. The extremes help to balance our lives. The debauchery is a wonderful release from being immersed in the world of toddlers much of the time, and being immersed in the world of toddlers is a grounding force that keeps us from getting too carried away in the debauchery.
But sometimes we do things that are not clearly in either camp. I ask for your judgment, LJ world. Is THIS debauchery or wholesome family fun?? lol

Just for the record, that would be my son's Spiderman boxers on wifey's head...lol. Whaddya think??
J
current mood: Hungry
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| Saturday, January 10th, 2004
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4:04 pm - They Just Don't Make Quality Anymore
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Can anyone tell me what the hell happened to Q-tips?? Eh? Can you?
They used to make them nice and rigid, so when you were cleaning your ears you could really get in there and dig around. Many is the time I nearly popped an ear drum when combining vigorous excavation with muzzy headed sleepyness. Yes, those were the days.
NOW the stupid things have about as much rigidity as al dente pasta, bending in half at the merest hint of pressure. Has our economic climate really sunk so low that Johnson & Johnson needs to alter the polymer formulas used in a lousy buck fifty box of Q-tips?? No doubt some poor team of research chemists and structural engineers spent valuable months of their lives determining exactly how thin the plastic centers could be made before they began to bend under the weight of their own downy cotton ends.
And don't get me started on the fluffiness factor, either. You just don't want to go there.
Seriously.
J
current mood: Annoyed
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| Friday, January 9th, 2004
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9:31 am - This Day In Bizarro World
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Well, actually, yesterday in bizarro world, leading all the way into today...or something. Fuck, I'm tired...and hungover. Umm...anyway...let's see.
1) Lord of The Rings completely rocked. They really handled this classic material well...didn't seem like 3 hours and 30 minutes at all.
2) I almost kissed the babysitter when she got here last night. She's really cute, and I'm convinced she has this secret wild side, so I've built up this entire thing in my head about her, and then last night when she walked in, purely out of habit and the fact it's how I am with most of our more open friends, I was walking towards her to give her a hug and kiss hello and then realized, shit, I'm about to send the babysitter running out of the house....lol. But maybe not...I think she's actually going to come out with us next weekend, and there's no WAY she hasn't figured out by now that we're just a little different than the average bear around here, so who knows.
3) Went down to Metro after the movie...they were having a fetish theme night, place was PACKED. Had no idea we had that many kinky people in little 'ol Akron...lol. Which reminds me....all of you should come to this: Fetish Nights
4) Wifey continued her recent streak of lurid wickedness....the night's victims included a former Babylon bartender we hadn't seen in a while, and wifey dragged him off to the bathroom (the Metro bathroom sees more action from us than some rooms in our HOUSE...lol). Total trip time - less than five minutes, resulting in one wobbly kneed bartender, several stains on wifey's outfit, and a lot of jokes about said bartender's quick trigger...hehe.
5) Got to know a fairly new friend and his girlfriend a LOT better last night over the course of the evening. We've met the g/f several times before, and she's been pretty standoffish...almost a bitch, actually....but she must've been in a helluva good mood last night. The four of us made quite a scene in the bar, including some weird creepy guy who got up really really close to us and was kind of squirming all around, telling the girls how hot they were. There should be an ignore button in real life just like online...lol. Brought them back home at bar time and played til about 4:30, mostly concentrating on the newly thawed g/f....she left very red, quite sore, and sobbing in release.....so much for standoffishness...hehe.
6) About halfway through our exploration of the g/f it comes out that she was good friends with my little sister when we were younger. This girl knew my entire family, remembered me from when we were kids, slept over at my freakin HOUSE a bunch of times when she was 12 to 13 or so...I would have been 16-17 then. I very vaguely recall her from then, but my god does she look different than I remember. Geez, if only I'd known then what a freak she was....lol. Such a small world.
7) Is it wrong that once we realized the connection from our past, it actually seemed hotter and dirtier to be playing with her?? *g*
More later...I'm too hungover to even know if I'm making this an interesting post...lol.
J
current mood: Hungover
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| Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
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6:06 pm - Update
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Major updates on our website, iff'n anyone's interested. New pics, new writing, even figured out how to embed LJ in the site.
Anyway, check it out:
Our Website
current mood: accomplished
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| Sunday, January 4th, 2004
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8:24 am - Chameleon?
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Everyone who knows wifey knows she can change her look pretty dramatically, even from day to day. Check this "look" out from a few years back:

Was working on some of our older pics for our website (Our Site) and found that one. It's one of my favorite short haircuts on her, modeled after Louise Brooks, even though you can't tell very well in this photo. Mmmmm *s*
J
current mood: Good
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| Friday, January 2nd, 2004
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4:22 pm - Public Notice
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To any of the numerous people who were kissing my wife on New Year's Eve - she just came back from the doctor's office and has tested positive for strep throat, so if you start feeling under the weather, go get tested.
If any of you do get sick, she sends apologies from her sick bed, and promises to make it up to you somehow *s*
Mr. L
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| Thursday, January 1st, 2004
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8:38 am - Holy Headache!
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Owwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Ow. Oww...ow.
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Yeah, so anyway....the New Year's festivities were a blast, if quite painful here in the early a.m. of a New Year's Day. Went to studio3dom and yummy's house first, a bit before ten, then a whole bunch of us headed down to our usual hangout, Babylon, soon to be renamed Metro. They had a Roaring 20's theme for the New Year's celebration, and wifey just happened to have a fantastic, and fantastically short, black flapper dress, from the bottom of which peeked her very sexy cream stockings all evening. No panties of course, which made it highly convenient for squeezing in the last fuck of 2003 in the bathroom just before midnight...hehe.
Picked up Stephanie, who beat laurie out in a wet t-shirt contest several months ago. Even Steph says laurie should have won, but she was quite eager to make it up to us, so we invited her back to J & B's for the after party. I think we were back there a whole ten minutes before she had laurie sitting on a settee on the stair landing, legs over her shoulders, as an appreciative crowd peeked up the stairwell. This continued what I think was a damned nice day of getting pampered for wifey, who spent most of the day at the Spa getting steamed and rubbed and manicured with madcharitybonny. I'd say a quick two hours at our favorite bar, sex, tequila and a hot kiss at midnight, followed by a tongue lashing at the hands of our very cute new redheaded friend qualifies as a great New Year's Eve....lol.
There must just be something about J & B's house....EVERY woman there, and I'm pretty sure there wasn't a single exception, had their tops up or off at some point. Damn Jeff, we must have the most magnificently breasted group of female friends anywhere...lol. Sadly, just as the debauchery was truly starting to roll, our sitter called and was having a hard time with the baby, so we had to scoot. Was already about 3 a.m. though....amazing how the time goes when women are naked *g*
Happy New Year All~
J n L
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| Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
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9:23 am - Odd Dream
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I have this weird thing about Paris Hilton. Normally, I care not at all about celebrity goings on....who's doing what to whom, with whom, etc....I barely even notice. Usually.
With Paris though, there's the fact that she's freakin EVERYWHERE lately, but there's also just something about her that captivates me. She comes across as such a COMPLETELY stupid bimbo that it shoots right past all of my normal boundaries and becomes perversely attractive. I'm not sure what that says about me, but what the hell...lol.
I had this dream about her the other night. I was out somewhere in NYC and bumped into her, and of course since it was my dream she was immediately taken with me and invited me to head out on the town with her for the night. She was wearing this hideous pink skirt, with black dots or stripes or something. I hate pink...lol. Anyway, she's taking me to all these swanky, hip clubs, which was cool, except that everytime we went to go in somewhere she'd sweep right in amidst the pop of flashbulbs, then the doorman or bouncer or whatever would jump in front of me and go "you can't come in here." I'd be like "Hey, I'm with Paris." The bouncer would look me up and down with a sneer....."yeah, sure you are."
That sounds about right...lol.
J
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| Friday, December 26th, 2003
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12:17 pm - With Apologies To Dr. Seuss
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It’s the day after Christmas, and things around here Are finally quiet, no relatives near
The stockings are emptied, the gifts strewn about, And we’ve got nearly fifty trash bags to go out
Our oldest, our Tristan, was thrilled with the season He’s three now and gets at least some of the reason
Why Christmas is special, a day full of cheer A day to reach out to those far and those near
To have people around us, those whom we love best Sharing memories, or smiles, a hug or a jest
"Bah, humbug", you say, yes, sometimes, me too It’s commercial, it’s bullshit, and often that’s true
There are years when the Spirit is harder to find But usually, somewhere, in the back of my mind
Is a small voice that says to me, "Just look around" You have family and friends, good fortune abounds
And it’s true, you know, oh so true, there is no doubt That voice chases each one of my "Bah Humbugs" out
This year was no different, there were times I was grumpy It was hectic and rushed, getting ready was bumpy
We were hosting at our house, the very first year The in-laws and us, everyone would be here
Decorations, the shopping, and menus to plan That’s right, I’m the chef, I’m a Renaissance man
Wrapping gifts, building toys, some assembly required Then at last, Christmas Eve, time for bed, we’re SO tired
Our wee ones are sleeping, by now not for long Let us please get some rest so we wake feeling strong
For a long day of gift giving, getting some too Sharing joy, seeing family, things long overdue
Five a.m. comes so early, our son peeking in Mommy, Daddy, wake up! Santa Claus has come in
There are packages everywhere, stacked to the skies It’s all worth it for wonder in a three year old’s eyes
And even the baby reacts to the sight All the color, the lights, everything looking bright
Laurie’s parents excited, like children themselves It’s so clear they enjoy being grandparent elves
Start the fire, oak burning, that smell in the air And then suddenly, somehow, that Spirit is there
It finds me each season, grouch and fuss though I might There is always a moment, it feels like a light
Going on in my head, and then I remember Why Christmas is special, why I do love December
The day passes in no time, with so much to do Food to make, toys to play with, a snowball fight too
Now the feast has been eaten, the candles all snuffed And still the next morning we’re all feeling stuffed
There was soup made with chestnuts, pineapple glazed ham Potatoes, a salad, and thankful I am
To be done with the cooking, and most of the cleaning So beat by day’s end I was practically leaning
That could be the wine though, three bottles, or four We went through a lot 'ere our guests hit the door
Then the quiet of nighttime, our fire still glowing Eyelids drooping, soft talking, our weariness showing
One last glass of wine we have, wifey and I Special gifts, secret gifts, not for family eyes
One more Christmas has past, another year closing We sit close together, we’re so close to dozing
One last toast, one last sip, for something that’s clear Once again, we found Christmas, the Spirit was here
Happy Holidays everyone~ Mr. and Mrs. L
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| Sunday, December 14th, 2003
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6:36 pm - Mess with a Three Year Old - It's Fun and It's Easy
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I was laying on the couch a little while ago and for some odd reason Tristan asked me if he could take my socks off. I said sure, and he started pulling on the toe of my left sock. Pull as he might, he couldn't get it off. I told him that was because I put special glue on the bottom of my foot to make sure my socks didn't fall off, and if he wanted to get the sock off he'd have to lick the bottom of my foot to soften up the glue. Being the trusting soul that he is, he went right for it...he even got a couple of fuzzy licks in before I got my foot out of the way. Is it mean to take pleasure in goofing with your own child like that?? lol
Laurie thought it was pretty funny too, but she couldn't decide if it was funnier than earlier when, after pretending Tristan was Santa for a while and I was a reindeer, Tristan asked me to cut up a piece of pizza he was eating with my reindeer horns. I went into the kitchen and got a knife and fork, then came back in holding them like antlers on the top of my head. I bent over and took a shot at cutting up his pizza that way, but mostly I just scraped some of the toppings onto the floor. Laurie still laughed so hard she peed.
I think I need to get a hobby..lol
J
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| Saturday, December 13th, 2003
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8:27 am - Corruption of the Innocent
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Do you ever just get a feeling about someone? Some sort of vibe that shines through a seemingly innocent exterior, saying "Corrupt me"? We have a friend like that, met at the Akron Symphony of all places, and almost from the beginning I've been telling wifey she's about three drinks and the right company away from some sort of breakthrough.
Well, Wednesday night we finally got the drinks in her, and the right company turned out to be wifey, myself, yummy and madcharitybonny.....and yes, it really REALLY sucked being the only guy out with THAT group *g*
MCB and I were out elsewhere in the early part of the evening, then caught up with wifey and the rest at about 11 o'clock. As we drove to the rendevous point I was explaining my theory about this girl to MCB. She was skeptical, saying "It has to be more complicated than that." We get there, and are at the bar getting our first drink (at that bar anyway...lol) and I turn around and wifey is kissing our newly broken out friend already!! While I'm waiting for my drink MCB pops over to the group to say hello, and our VERY broken out friend runs her hand from MCB's knee to the tops of her thigh highs..."yummy" she says, or something like that.
I finally go over to say hello, and I give our friend a hug, then she says to me "I kissed your wife. She's a good kisser. I think I might be a lesbian." I look at MCB, she says "Ok, maybe it's not that complicated." LOL
Anyway, I first pointed out that she doesn't HAVE to be a lesbian, that it's perfectly acceptable to go both ways. She seemed pretty satisfied with that possibility. Needless to say, the rest of the evening was fairly interesting. Our friend actually had another male friend along for a while, but he didn't last very long....I think we scared him...lol.
Our friend didn't even try to pretend she was too drunk to remember everything when wifey called her the next day, which I halfway thought she would, so it shall be interesting to see how she is the next time we are around her. Hopefully the corruption will stick..hehe
Not bad at all for a Wednesday night!!
J
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| Friday, December 12th, 2003
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11:55 am - Education
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Helped out madcharitybonny with the final projects for a technical writing class she teaches at a local two year college. Essentially I was roleplaying an employer conducting interviews for various job positions, and the students were being evaluated on various criteria for how they performed in the interview. I then sat through her English Comp class, in which her students were giving oral presentations on research topics of their choice.
A few observations:
1) I NEVER had a teacher that looks like MCB...not at any level. I think I would have failed if I had...hehe
2) She must be an excellent teacher. I didn't get to see much of that, because it was mostly the students, but I overheard a lot of what seemed heartfelt compliments to her, including more than one "you were the best teacher...."
3) Intellect is everywhere, and probably in proportions that would surprise some people. Some of the interviews were tough, like pulling teeth. Some of the presentations were bad...really bad. But some of the interviews were damned interesting too, and some of the presentations showed flashes of possibility. In each class, one person in particular stood out to me. The last interview I did was with Ron, who was about my own age, I'm guessing, a machinist for twelve years, and who was now switching careers completely to go into electronics engineering. Extremely well spoken, adventurous hobbies such as mountaineering in his spare time. He struck me as the sort of person who was pretty quiet on the job, consistently performing well above average at repetitive, but precision, tasks that would drive someone like me insane. I bet he reads a lot...a LOT. Thoroughly enjoyable to talk with.
From her Comp class I met Chris, a young thin chain smoker, sporting intricate full sleeve tattoos, who spoke freely of past drug addiction, and his time in prison. He told of being kicked out of his house at a young age, getting his own place, supporting himself, and forging the necessary paperwork to stay in and finish high school. He also spoke simply and eloquently about the lack of "correction" in our correctional institutions, and his hopes of being an entrepreneur someday, with his own tattoo shop, but first he felt the smart thing to do would be to concentrate on his education, gaining some business knowledge in addition to his skills as an artist. I know far more educated people who aren't nearly that smart, if you know what I mean.
Meeting people like that always makes me wonder what sort of circumstances led them down the path they are on.....why a machinist and not a professor, engineer, or whatever? How does a young man with a seemingly good head on his shoulders go straight from high school to prison? I'm certainly not trying to say those "educated" careers are the only worthwhile pursuits, not by any means....but it makes you wonder...at least it makes ME think about...how so many "smart" people end up in positions where their intellect and good sense are not necessarily being put to the "highest and best use," while so many collossally dumb people end up in positions of influence and power.
If you can be even a LITTLE objective about our society, and the people in it, how can you NOT grasp the significance of the nature vs. nurture debate? Human potential can be snuffed out like a candle flame, and perhaps just as easily, by circumstances that are to a certain extent beyond an individual's control. This dialogue is coming from a registered Republican here....that's mostly based on my opinions about fiscal policy rather than social issues...but still, I am far from a liberal. I have zero sympathy for people who have opportunity, even a small amount of it, but who fail to take advantage. Nonetheless, I cannot meet folks like I met in MCB's classes, people who ARE grasping an opportunity, who are putting in significant effort to make a change in their lives, and in themselves, and wonder how much raw talent we as a society are missing because those opportunities are not as widely availabe as they should be.
The Republican line is typically that social problems aren't easily solved by simply throwing money at them....a mistake I think Democrats too often make. It's opportunity we need to be spreading around, not cash......but how in the world to do THAT??? Does it not HAVE to begin with education? Yet, in Ohio at least, dollars for education seem inevitably to be the first to get cut when the budget is coming up short. Levies fail again and again while our school buildings crumble, and our teachers have to scratch and claw and beg to get a lousy three percent raise per year. Subsidy for higher education continues to drop, while tuition to state universities rises at roughly twice the rate of inflation.
Am I the only one who views this sort of thing as self fulfilling idiocy?? More education means better jobs, higher incomes, more taxes paid...in short an expanding economy, instead of a shrinking one. But no, that takes long term thinking, which is antithetical to politicians who for the most part can't see past the next election.
Grrrr. My soapbox is rising higher and higher here, so I'm going to stop now. This started out as a post about how I enjoyed meeting some interesting new people in MCB's classes...lol. Lecture over, for now~
J
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